I’m not certain the reason but lately I just want to stay home.

It could be grief. Grieving takes its toll. Especially grieving in limbo. When the person you are grieving is still alive but death is imminent. That is the situation with my friend right now and it was the same with my father 10 years ago. I haven’t heard from her husband since I went to visit her again on Saturday. Sometimes I almost convince myself that she’s made a miraculous recovery. Other times, when I really let myself think hard about her, I feel indescribable sadness. It’s different than it was with my father but brings up a lot of long-buried memories.

It could be that I’m on day 6 of some sort of nasty stomach flu. I don’t feel sick like I did the first two days but I still can’t really eat anything. Think I’ve lost some weight? Probably not.

It could just be this time of year. It snowed yesterday. Just flurries. Still. Snow. Bleh.

And that pretty sums up how I feel right now. Just…bleh.  I just want to stay home.

I love our house. It’s not “fabulous” by any stretch of the imagination. Hell, half the time it’s not even “clean” by anyone’s standards. But the couch is warm and inviting. The other people here are some of my favorites. There are tons of books, lots of movies and no snow.

Lucky for me I’m still working from home two days a week. Working from home can be challenging because it’s so easy to get distracted and mismanage your time. But it’s nice too because I don’t have to deal with all that goes into getting to the office….traffic, getting dressed….even showering….not required.  I don’t have to deal with the constant interruptions, although we are so busy right now that they come frequently enough via e-mail. It’s still much nicer working from home. It’s peaceful and comfortable.

Hubby has reconnected with some old friends on facebook and a few have planned to get together tomorrow night. I was supposed to have gotten a babysitter. I finally determined that I simply don’t feel like going. Anywhere. So, he’ll get some much-needed socialization and I’ll get some much-needed alone time. Here. At home.

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You may be wondering why I’m posting Christmas pictures on April 6th.  I’M NOT!  This picture was taken TODAY. 

We’ve had some pretty decent weather here in Chicagoland lately, mostly in the 50′s but a couple of 60-70 degree days.  It was feeling like spring.  Then, last night…this nonsense.  The high for today is going to be 37 degrees.  My boys are on Spring Break this week.  The plan was to do all sorts of things…OUTSIDE!!  Now, we’re trapped in here and it’s only day one, but I have to admit they’re already driving me a little nuts.  To top it all off, my favorite tulips are in peril…

That’s just wrong.

The good news is that it’s allegedly going to get back up into the 50′s later in the week.  Even so, this snow is completely unacceptable.  I was about ready to go get a pedicure and start tanning in preparation for summer.  Instead, I have to shovel snow?!!  Global Warming?  Not here.

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