A Glimmer Of Hope
“Maybe everyone can live beyond what they’re capable of.” — Markus Zusak
Last night I allowed my thoughts to wander to all the horrible places I had been stopping them from going. I had a long cry. Sobbing really. Uncontrollable it seemed. But it wasn’t. It stopped. It didn’t feel particularly good to have done it. Well, maybe a little. I like a good cry normally. At a movie or reading a book, not real life. I also like happy tears. Anytime either of my sons has a school performance of any sort I cry.
It was with significant trepidation that I called Gina’s husband today. I got his voice mail. I felt like an utter moron saying that I was calling to see how things were going. I finally just said I was calling to check in.
I was not prepared for what he told me when he called back.
She seems to be doing better. A lot better. No, the doctors have not changed their prognosis and none of her health problems have changed. But she is better. She stayed up all night talking to him. She was more lucid than she’s been in weeks. She was in less pain than she’s been in for some time. She even threw a pillow at him when he made some obnoxious smart-ass comment about something. She was talking about a clinical trial she wants to pursue. She was miffed that everyone is believing what the doctors are saying!
THAT is the Gina I know. She sounds like herself. He said she even looks markedly better. I was blown away. Hope. It’s a beautiful thing. He sounded hopeful. She has a friend who has lived with bone cancer for several years. Apparently she was in Gina’s current condition at some point in the past. He tells me she doesn’t look sick at all today.
At first I was afraid to get too hopeful. Then I thought…why? Why in the hell not?! Even if our hopes are dashed tomorrow or even in the next 1/2 hour, why not revel in the hope while we can!
If anyone can pull off a miracle, this is the woman to do it. And if she does….I am in BIG trouble for having written about her impending death. I can live with that. 
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Wow, way to go Gina! Here’s to hope!
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Cyndi,
I have been following your blog for a while, I had felt the need of commenting your posts, and than I had changed my mind just because your posts were very touching and meaningful and I felt that wasn’t right to intrude in your blog in those difficult moments.
Now I see an awakening on you and I am happy for you and your friend!
Here I share with you this parable from Buddha:
“A man traveling across a field encountered a tiger. He fled, the tiger after him. Coming to a precipice, he caught hold of the root of a wild vine and swung himself down over the edge. The tiger sniffed at him from above. Trembling, the man looked down to where, far below, another tiger was waiting to eat him. Only the vine sustained him.
Two mice, one white and one black, little by little started to gnaw away the vine. The man saw a luscious strawberry near him. Grasping the vine with one hand, he plucked the strawberry with the other. How sweet it tasted! ”
Nobody know how long our life is going to be, but always, we might be able to fully enjoy every single moment…
All the best!
Hi Boris! Thank you for commenting and feel free to “intrude” with your comments anytime. I have been following your blog as well. Thank you for this parable from Buddha. I love it. It’s so true isn’t it?
Gina sounds like an amazing woman, and so do you, Cyndi. Without hope, we might as well just give up everything.
Blessings,
Karen
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i got my own lesson of hope last week. i’m a christmas elf for twins whose sister is dying. i was at a unique store in my area and i got 1 of them an ornament with 3 sisters on it and the other a bookmark with the same image. i told the clerk about it at checkout when she asked who they were for. she not only gave me a discount, but she gave me a little pewter pocket “coin” that said “HOPE” on it. it meant the world to me.
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That is an amazing story. I got goosebumps. What you are doing for the kids is wonderful.
That’s great news about your friend, I was so sad when I read your post the other day. I prayed for her and for you!
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Well, thank you very much! I am honored.