Comments on: Evidence Of My Imperfection

By: I Don't Know What I Don't Know | So Much More Than A Mom

I Don't Know What I Don't Know | So Much More Than A Mom — Wed, 09 Dec 2009 14:53:05 +0000

[...] of making the wrong decision and having only myself to blame. Fear that others would not love me if the secret of my imperfection were to get out. Fear of failure, rejection, fear of [...]

By: Baby Steps | So Much More Than A Mom

Baby Steps | So Much More Than A Mom — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 08:11:27 +0000

[...] have to preface this post with a BIG thank you to my friend Dawn over at Morse Musings for providing me with this quote. It couldn’t be more perfect. Thanks [...]

By: Cyndi

Cyndi — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 23:33:42 +0000

I’m sorry to hear that you do this to yourself too but happy to hear you are with me. Thank you!

By: Cyndi

Cyndi — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 23:33:01 +0000

No need to apologize. I always enjoy being a source of amusement for you.

Actually, that was sort of the point. Not to make you laugh but to point out how unhealthy my thought process is. Yours is MUCH healthier and FUN!

By: Cyndi

Cyndi — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 23:31:49 +0000

It’s awful isn’t it. I felt complete at utter panic at having to “explain myself” to my husband. I’m a 39 year old woman for fuck’s sake! I have to admit, even after writing this post I find myself avoiding going into that room. I think I’m going to force myself to stare at it for a long time. Maybe I won’t paint it white…a creative mural sounds like a nice memento to remember “MY BIG MISTAKE”.

By: Swapna

Swapna — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 17:20:54 +0000

I go through this too Cyndi. Endless pointless worrying!

The evidence just pricks your heart and at times i wish i could just vanish into thin air

As you rightly put, sky isnt going to fall or so am beginning to learn.Am with you here. Have a nice day.
Swapna´s last blog ..Life, less hurried

By: Cyndi

Cyndi — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 11:39:33 +0000

You make a valid point. It is much easier to focus when on anti-depressants and not fall into these thinking patterns that go nowhere but down. You’re probably right about not screwing up as much too! I don’t think you’re a drug pusher, although that image is pretty funny!

By: Les

Les — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 05:53:05 +0000

Oh, Cyndi, I can so relate to this. I hate to see any remnants of my mistakes and would want to immediately make things “perfect” again.

I also used to play things over and over in my head whenever I did something I thought was stupid. I would cringe and worry and relive it for days. This is one of the most wonderful things about my use of prescription pharmaceuticals (I know, I sound like I’m pushing drugs), but it’s worked like a charm for me. I am no longer paralyzed after making a mistake, and sometimes it seems like I don’t even screw up as much (probably because I’m not worried about screwing up)!
Les´s last blog ..Use It Before You Lose It

By: Tammy

Tammy — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 00:04:08 +0000

k – i would have laughed at myself OUT LOUD! Is it bad I thought the sink thing was funny? I do get the big picture about beating yourself up over mistakes, but the sink thing….kinda’ got a chuckle from that one. Sorry!
Tammy´s last blog ..36 – A Nice Round Number.

By: Cyndi

Cyndi — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 21:49:48 +0000

No kidding! And that quote is so true and perfect! These are the things I have to always remind myself to do….question everything I think. It’s freakin’ exhausting!