On My Own Again
“Many people need desperately to receive this message: ‘I feel and think much as you do, care about many of the things you care about, although most people do not care about them. You are not alone.’” – Kurt Vonnegut
I originally found out that I enjoy being alone when I was separated. At first I thought it was just because the craziness and chaos that preceded our separation was over and some peace was restored to our house and my life. I quickly came to realize that while all of that was true, I also seriously love, and in fact, need significant amounts of alone time, even when there is no craziness or chaos.
I spent most weeknights alone, once the kids were in bed. I spent most weekends alone, because the kids were with their father. I found that I never get bored. I can always find something to do, or not do, but am literally never bored when I’m spending free time alone. This was confirmed when I went on my solo trip last May. It was one of the best vacations I have ever taken. Ever. And I was completely alone.
During my year of unemployment, I was alone most weekdays, all day, because the kids were at school and hubby was at work. Since I’ve gone back to work, the only times I’ve been alone have been in my car, on the way to or from work. That was the main reason I had a difficult time adjusting to working full time again. I was mourning my alone time.
This weekend, hubby took the boys to a cousin’s cabin with some other family members. Because he’s on vacation from work next week they may not come back home until Tuesday or Wednesday. I have to work Monday so I didn’t join them. Plus, I’m only outdoorsy in a tropical beach kind of way, not a bug-infested woods kind of way. They were all pretty excited about the trip and I am pretty excited about my weekend alone.
It’s a little different this time. We’ve all grown much closer since hubby and I reconciled a little over a year ago. I miss them already. I don’t miss them in a what-am-I-going-to-do-without-them way, I just enjoy their company. Having said that, I am happy to be here, all on my own for a little while.
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I am soooo with you on this. I love my family to pieces, but it is so nice sometimes to have the house and TV all to myself. No noise. No constant sports on TV. No big meals to cook. And I can’t understand how people can say they get bored when they’re alone. Must just be boring people–haha. Anyways, enjoy!
I couldn’t agree with you more, about both the limited alone time and the only tropical beach outdoor type. lol My kids will be going away to sleep away camp for a week starting Monday. I thought I would be biting my nails by now but I’m looking forward to being able to regroup while their away. Great to hear things are going so well for you and your family…YEA!
this is the one thing i truly need, need, need, and never get — my house all to me… time alone with no agenda, no schedule… free to be-ness.
my husband gets it, because he cuts out of work. my kids get it, because they come home from school and sometimes their schedules are different.
i am starved for it. in three weeks, my husband and kilds head to my in-laws’ place in the woods of PA (i hate going there — same reasons as you) and i will have four blissful days to myself. i can hardly wait
I absolutely feel the same way. I LOVE my alone time and am never bored. Enjoy your weekend. I’m glad the job is working out for you too. Now you will probably be offered the National City job and will have to make a decision!
I don’t understand the word ‘bored’ either. Being alone rocks, it makes time together greater some how.
Free to be-ness … love that term!